Awkward? Withdrawn? Or just peculiar?

Hellooooooooooo!!! How long has it been?

Life's been very busy so far. There's barely time to breathe.
And still, here i am. Blogging in the midst of my study week. I barely touched any note today. So dead. Worse, i couldn't feel death is nearing, yet.

Turning to writing for some sort of comfort because I definitely am more eloquent in written form rather than verbally. And I found that I've been more withdrawn than ever when placed in a company of people. I used to have a lot of thoughts and ideas, but if I try to express them verbally, it always sounds really garbled and disjointed. Well, at least there's still something going on on my mind.

Lately, I felt like I'm not even using my brain much. I often tune out in the midst of a conversation with basically nothing on my mind. I just blanked out. Looking like I was lost in my own thoughts.

People often do not get the point of what I am saying till I repeat them once? Twice? That's how bad I am at conveying message. The maturity of my thoughts have definitely went downhill since I don't know when because not that it's hard to start a conversation, it's also difficult to keep up with one. When I'm asked a question directed to only me, I still need time to process and arrange my thoughts before expressing them. Never a spontaneous person but I am slow now. What?

I am keeping to myself a lot lately? Thoughts just vapourised into thin air after some time. I want to talk to someone but really, there's nothing much to be said. Too much happened to family and friends. My defense mechanism chose to wipe them all out.

People often say that I speak too softly. I speak softly because I am listening to my own thoughts too much. Maybe.

People often say that I am too quiet. I tried to talk more but eventually, my true colours shone through. It was an exhausting act to put up with a face that isn't yours.

I have a lecturer in university who actually told me, "If there's a wallpaper I think you'd rather blend in it because you wouldn't care less.".

So you tell me. Am I progressing from socially awkward to a socially withdrawn person? Though I suspected that I am mildly autistic all along.

Tail : Not Found

Hair flip that produces a lizard.

I shall never forget this road trip. Bukit Tinggi, Pahang.

A two days and one night double date made its way to a day road trip consisting of seven people because the hotel was fully booked. The more, the merrier was indeed a very true idiom. 

Started off the day having breakfast together. The guys' appetites were huge. Nasi lemak after noodles and roti canai. I was kinda taken aback. But since they had them for breakfast, probably that didn't pose much of a problem. Judging from their still-so-slim physique, i'll just assumed that they have pretty high metabolism rate. Which made me envious! I secretly wish to be reborn as a guy so that i can eat a lot without getting fat. Nah, i joked about the reason behind my wish. Since they were having so much of food and only decided to have another after finishing one, we spent quite sometime on breakfast. Lol.

We took longer than the estimated time to reach Bukit Tinggi cause we missed a turning. Depending fully on GPS you see. But the journey was made less boring when you had all the chatterbox around. Time passed by especially fast with all the crap talking. Climbed flight and flight of stairs and we finally reached the Japanese Village. RM12 per person (adult) to enter the entire compound, inclusive of the The Chateau and Botanical Garden. The air was cooling but we were all sweating. 

Strolled around and took some pictures. I personally thought that Japan was more beautiful than France because i saw more greens than buildings. Mother Nature always produces the most picturesque view. But it can be a nuisance when it rains at the inappropriate times. Our trip was cut short because it rained and stopped and rained again and again. Wei Han treated us lunch at Restoran 126.   

Thanks for the company.

First wefie using a monopod.

Met two one of their friend and his gf there.

After climbing a lot of stairs.

Fish. His fav.

A photo with the koi.

Our legs look long here.

While he was helping me to take this, a foreigner actually volunteered to help both of us take a photo together.

This is picturesque.

Spolit the picturesque view.

The stairs look very nice when he was not there. Hahaha.

Likewise, the pond looks very nice without me, he said.

Love the rocks and water.

Girl in kimono spotted.

^_^

I'd love to have a session but it's closed.

Lovely couple.

Yay, i have longer legs.

I wish to photoshop out all the people in the background. Haha.

Photoboomed by sweater.

The people who made the trip more fun.

Colmar Tropicale – French-themed Resort by Berjaya. Dark sky cause it rained repeatedly when we were there. Kinda dampened our spirit.

Because i like the green with blue.

His attempt at being artistic.

Fountain, must take a picture.

I have no idea where to place my hands in all my pictures =|

Oh hey, i am in France!

I love this :)

Picture in picture.

^_______^

Arranged like bowling pins.

Blur background :(

低头族

Stir-fried crispy pork belly?! Is it? Oh my. I only posted this cause it was the best dish. And i ate a lot of this. It was crispy and tasty with lots of my fav, onions.

Selfie after eating.

Watched Lucy at Setia Walk after that. Had curry and caramel popcorns. The curry one tasted unusually tasty but the spice powder made us choked. My lips felt numb after having some of it. The movie was not bad. I was fighting and resisting my drowsiness from exhaustion, not from the movie. I must be too sleepy to realise that a lizard had made its way into my hair. Felt something was moving in my hair (area around the neck) and i THOUGHT it was beetle. I flipped and A TAIL-LESS LIZARD WITH LOTS OF BLACK SPOTS ON THE BODY suddenly appeared on the dashboard, staring at us. Chaos. Thanks to Soon Yin, we got rid of the lizard. BUT WTH THE TAIL WAS DETACHED, WASN'T IT? 

The "moon" made from plastic bottle at SetiaWalk.

Supper at Poon Kee, Bandar Puteri.

The gula Melaka was very aromatic.

Never try this but it looked so smooth. 

They actually listed some of the desserts' calorific value on the wall. Those with low calorific values.

Thank you for planning and organising this trip.

And be my FOC photographer =)

I am not a fish

But today i am filled to the gill.

I'll pretend that i wrote this on Thursday although i am writing now and it's Friday. Something is wrong on the time setting and i am never bothered to correct it. 

Sisters' day out to Midvalley, but first, lemme tell my story about yesterday (Wednesday).

I wanted to go to Connaught pasar malam at least once before uni reopens (in less than two weeks time). So bf suggested us to go this week. Or maybe we're gonna go on both weeks. Haha. I think he was supposed to work overtime but he declined. I know he's making effort to make time for us. For that, i thank you.

My two must-have(s), peanut butter chicken floss crepe and passion fruit drink. Tomyam was the third but was out of the list long ago due to my stomach condition. He, on the other hand, was craving for fried food. So he had stinky tofu (his must-have) and Uncle Bob's fried chicken chop. Blame the work-stress. I wanted to try the ever so famous flower pot ice-cream but you know what, i felt so grown up because i was not cheated by the gimmick of a pot of ice-cream that resembles a flower pot where people are more interested by the soil rather than the flowers. I never love flowers though (except daisies). I still love ice-cream nevertheless, so we had Polar Bear strawberry yogurt soft serve. Polar Bear serves a variety of ice-cream choices such as matcha, lavender, black sesame, raisin, etc. but only two flavours a week. Strawberry yogurt is their static menu and flavour of the week is black sesame. Next week is matcha! I would like to try the lavender one though.

Must-have.

Strawberry yogurt soft serve.

Chew chew's stinky tofu. I wonder why people love stinky tofu.

Taiwan sausage in a wu gok. Bought home for sis and bro. 

The uncle who sells this actually sells lao sha bao too. Both steamed and fried! I've always wanted to try the fried one.Why did i say NO? Why?

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On Thursday, it was an impromptu outing. I only decided to join them in the morning itself. They watched Cafe. Waiting. Love. (等一个人咖啡). Sis had been going on and on about it but i don't love coffee. I had the lowest caffeine tolerance. And i am not a big fan of love story (Jom, Annabelle~) haha. Shopped around and had lunch alone while waiting for their to end. I waited for at least 30 minutes. I was eating my food as slow as possible. Plus i requested for a table for three and i was given one for four. I was constantly checking out and making sure that there's empty table available everytime someone walks in. Guilty for taking up so much space in a normally crowded cafe but thank goodness it wasn't yesterday. Or else i was already ready to give up my table. We had so much fun eating, chatting, shopping, trying out clothes and buying yesterday. The highlight of the day was meeting 洁莹! Sis spotted her at the cinema buying tickets with Danny and 雪芬. Sis were still queuing by the time they were done. Luckily, just so lucky they went for popcorn. So, dengan muka tebalnya, we asked for a photo each with her. I thought the three of them will come but maybe the two are already used to the higher popularity 洁莹 owns? 雪芬, i wanted a photo with you too actually, seriously. 洁莹 was so nice, polite and all smiling :)

Thanks to all the good time we had, we were stuffed and broke now. There were only coins left in purse at the end of the day. Ohhh, i am so broke man T_T  

We were like three dinosaurs. Breakfast at home, they had cheesy wedges and mashed potato in the cinema while i was walking around munching on tidbits. Then i had lunch at Nana's and they joined me later for parfait. Together we had desserts at T&Co. Before heading home, we tapao Tai Lei Loi Kei's pork polo bun and Roti Boy. Bought Japanese mooncakes from Komugi for bf's fam too. Three tummies with three black holes. I was pretty left with the nausea feeling till the next morning. It's gross and freaking uncomfortable. I vowed to repent but i never did. I shall just hashtag all my food pictures #fatandunrepentant

赵洁莹! We were kinda starstruck. Sis has always been a fan of hers. Sorry Danny and 雪芬, i cropped your sexy backs out. We are not thick-skinned enough to ask for more pictures :(

Lunch alone but i occupied a table for four.

Chicken cutlet curry. Yums.

Matcha latte. Still as good as the very first glass we had.

Matcha "Gateaux Chocolat" Parfait 

An artisan dessert starting with a layer of Kanten jelly and matcha syrup then topped with soft serve vanilla ice-cream, generous layer of cornflakes and garnished with a matcha ice-cream, matcha gateaux chocolate cake, red bean paste, whipped cream and a drizzle of matcha syrup.

The gateaux (meaning cake in French, i think?) is very dense and kinda hard. Dare to try this because cousin said the cake tasted like ice-cream cake. Hng. Ahhh, my nama chocolat :( So tempted to order it again.

Iced Big T's Luxe Chocolate and fudgy brownie cake (it's warmed before served).

It's fluffier than normal brownie, thus the name "brownie cake" i supposed.

We love the fudge more than everything else.

It's tough to even fit two people in. How do people include so many in a wefie?

Used timer to take this at a alley where passer-by kept passing by. The timer sounded like a bomb timer to me *embarassed shit*

O-Tsukimi. Japanese mooncake. The crust is actually Baum.

From top left, clockwise.

1. | Raspberry | (Raspberry chocolate ganache with toasted almond bits, soft mochi and candied orange "egg yolk") 
2. | Matcha | (Matcha chocolate ganache with Azuki red bean, soft mochi and candied orange "egg yolk") 
3. | Mango Coconut | (Mango coconut chocolate ganache with sunflower seed (kuaci),  soft mochi and candied orange "egg yolk") 
4. | Black sesame | (Black sesame chocolate ganache with sunflower seed (kuaci),  soft mochi and candied orange "egg yolk") 

See, i came back for more. They are actually not bad.

Cut my fringe like two-three days ago and i felt that it has grown so much already. 

Is this normal? -_-