Gratitude

He delivered the three things that have been in my mind to my doorstep. Kinda touched. Yea, i have a heart of steel when it comes to things like this.

I think i am really stressed up to crave all of those. I just want something sweet. Anything sweet.

People said when you're stress, you crave for sweet foods, you crave for salty foods when you're depressed. Does that mean i am free from depression, yet?

Something disturbing must have gotten into me.

Crying when i was studying, crying while eating and worst of all, crying when watching running man?! Thank goodness i am not feeling suicidal. 

Why did i become so sentimental all of the sudden, i asked myself.

Maybe because i realised nothing is gonna last forever.

A senior was recently diagnosed with spinal cord tumor and i just knew it yesterday. Just like what happened in the drama i watched. This is happening in reality. This is so unbelievable. 

I was shocked. I pitied her. I felt so sad for her. She has a bright future ahead of her. She is still so young. A senior who noticed and remembered me among so many people who never even know i existed. I seem to have the talent to appear as invisible as possible to people, naturally. Ha. I noticed her too though we are never close. I still remembered how she looked when i first saw her. And how she's became so tiny year by year. Yes, tiny. She shrank. 

I sincerely hope that she can be strong to endure all the pain she's going to face, physically and also mentally. Everything, please don't be too harsh on her.

This is corny but still i am going to say it. Never take anything for granted. Be grateful. Be happy.

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Best described my feeling right now.

Ice-cream couldn't stop the tears anymore.

Renal lab

Lab for renal patient this week.

My group was assigned to prepare a low protein diet for a CKD stage 4 diabetic patient.

So many things to manage. Protein, carbohydrate, phosphate, potassium, sodium and so on.

Foods high in potassium might be high in phosphate too. 

Food high in protein is high in phosphate too.

It's tough to find the balance between them.

My head had gone bigger after the lab. Lol.

Tomato egg and stir-fried cabbage and carrot.

For the patient. Plain.

For us. With chicken bits. Haha.

Without yolk for the patient cause yolk is high in phosphate.

For us, lots of yolks of course. I just love yolk!

Overwhelmed.

I was haunted my nightmares almost every night.

Nightmares about PDT labs where not having ingredients to cook. I have made my orders clearly. Somehow the lab assistant just couldn't get them for me cause they were unavailable. 

I dreamt about pharmacology exam. I couldn't made it on time to the exam hall. I didn't have enough time to study. I was totally blank when i saw the exam paper. I had no idea how the hell i was supposed to answer the questions.

I was feeling so overwhelmed from the moment i woke up. Cried myself to sleep at night. The whole last week. I wanted to express myself here in hope of to find some comfort in writing, too bad i couldn't find the time. 

I tried to act normal in front of people. Yeah, i succeeded. Even my best unimate confessed that she saw a difference in me. How i used to be so quiet whenever exam is around the corner but not this semester. I said i've seen through everything. She said it's because i can manage my stress better now. Really?

One Tuesday night, i actually had the thought of giving up. I want to quit. I must have feel crazily stressed up cause i never ever in my wildest dream to have such a thought. Well, good thing that i've requested a friend, my best friend, to keep track of me if i am being suicidal. So, we are keeping track of each other now. Helping each other to de-stress but sparing some time to chat.

Back to basic: Inexpensive comfort food that never fail to cheer me up. Kaya butter bun.

Bf sensed my elevated stress level. He asked me out for a date. Normally, we will just have breakfast together. Cause he will only ask me out for breakfast. I am always the one who requests to catch a movie in the cinema or to shop in malls. Yes, he is an otaku. Worse than me. Haha.

Tried Mr. Bean's soy pancakes.

Chocolate, egg mayo, kaya, peanut butter, red bean and cream cheese.

As usual, he had to finish what's left behind by me. Kaya and red bean are my personal favourites. 

Look at these cute merchandises!

And him promoting the pancakes.

Searched the whole Daiso for this. We almost gave up.

Groceries shopping is just too awesome. 

Nacho is the shape of thunderbolts!

Expensive good eats. He wanted me to try cause his friend recommended it and he knows i love nacho.

Thank you for your companionship.

I chopped off inches of my hair already. Arghhh. Regretting now but hair grows right.

CHD lab

CHD lab is also our eighth lab.

A change in group members and thus a change in style of menu planning.

Cooked Malay dishes for the first time for lab.

Suddenly realised i am so cina and westernised somehow cause all dishes prepared before this are either chinese or western dishes.

Most confusing lab ever.

What can i say, i missed my initial group members T_T

Cooked ayam kurma and stir-fried cabbage and cauliflower with shitake mushrooms.

Looking like a "Ying yang" symbol. Lol. Cause suddenly i was thinking of my diet faddism presentation on Zen Macrobiotic diet. It is something about balance of ying and yang through diet.

CVD lab

Probably you can guess what this post will be about from the picture above already.

CVD lab for this week!

What are in the picture? Tofu burger patties~

So worried that my tofu burger will not be successful.

Luckily we made it worked. :D

Our patties didn't fall apart. Fine, some of them did. But well, they tasted good~

Tofu burger served with steamed potatoes and lettuce and cherry tomatoes salad with olive oil and lemon juice dressing.

I can even post up a close up picture cause the internet speed is so fast here. Lol.

Only for the dietitians :D

Unspoken words.

I always find the written word so much easier than the spoken word.
But now, despite my inner voice, the voice i hear inside my mind,

I couldn't find the right words to tell you.

Happy Holidays!

Happy Belated Halloween everyone!

Although we never celebrate Halloween in the family, i would actually like to do so with friends.

Halloween parties are just too cool. Saw tons of photos on Facebook and Instagram.

I love spooky stuffs. And i love pumpkins! :D

Sweet Halloween treat delivered by the bf to my doorstep :D

Have been away for quite awhile in preparation for my midsem exam.

I can never deny the fact that my brain is aging. Brain cells are dying because i am aging!

Attended senior's convocation on Monday after Pharmacology exam. Fuh, we were exhausted after that. How come people were the ones graduating but we looked as if we'd been doing all the hard work? Lol.

I've been busy studying for exams though most of the time i was slacking. Deteriorating attention span! Another symptom of aging. Bf has been pretty busy too. In fact, he is way busier than i am. His final semester has started. He is busy with his studies and also his FYP. Busy helping his dad with his business since the parents are on vacation. Busy preparing dinner for the family while the parents are away. Now that my exams had ended and a week of midsem break is finally here, he is still as busy as he was. It has always been this way. When one of us is having exams, the other is on holiday and vise versa. Is this a good thing or what? I know he is trying to make time for me. Like how he delivered the ice-cream to my house. 

We went for some yummy foods straight after MNT exam. 

Lunch at Watami Japanese Casual Restaurant at Pavillion.

My last outing with unimates was like a semester ago. My goodness.

Never my intention to portray myself as an anti-social freak.

Life has been pretty hectic. Assignments are pilling. Lecture notes are adding everyday. We are having lab every single week. Preparation work before lab and report afterwards. We are assigned to do market surveys. We are even requested to create websites. We have presentations. We are gonna undergo mock counseling. We are like superwomen. Lol. 

I have bad time management. I am too overwhelmed with the workload. I couldn't find time for other things including outings with friends. I get tired easily nowadays. If i could have some free time to myself i could rather rest or spend them doing nothing at all. I came to realisation that i am distancing from friends i used to be close to. But it is so hard to even find a common topic of conversation now. Blame myself for not putting effort into maintaining our friendship. My excuse to myself is always i do not have enough time. There's so much to do but too little time. Give all the time in the world, the same thing might still happen. Duh, excuse like i said. Maybe i am just not a good friend material.

Lunch with Li Ying, Chui Yeng, Charissa, Ginny and Jasmine :)

With Jasmine and Li Ying.

Look at Chui Yeng's face x)

Chui Yeng, Charissa and Ginny.

Sushi that came with our ramen set. Dislike the pile of mashed meat on top =/

Ginny and Charissa shared a wok of steamboat.

Black pepper beef rice that comes with udon. 

Jasmine and I shared a bowl of spicy miso ramen.

Soda grapefruit and soda plum at the back.

We looked at the bill and we were thinking, "Where the hell are our salads?"

They served us our salads as aftermeal dessert rather than appetizer with an apology of course.

Aiya! We should have requested for desserts instead. Lol.

Pretty lightings in the restaurant that remind me of the universe.

This was the Macau pork chop bun i had on Monday. This is really a good eat.

Cousin tapao this back from Sri Petaling and he said there is a branch outlet in Puchong too.