Not again!

I've realised..
girls' tears only seem to fall when they don't know
what they're gonna do anymore to try to be happy.

They cry because they're fighting against
those feelings that are telling them to let go,
but knowing that if they let go,
they might regret it.
And they're just trying to figure out
what's going to happen
if they keep holding on.
And if they're willing to go through
with all the pain that's needed
just to keep fighting.

So true..
I hate myself for letting it to happen again..
I want to be strong! Grrrr..!!!
Nothing should matter that much anymore.